I went to do relief teaching at a student care today. Some of the students are so cute, handsome or pretty... It makes me wonder if I really don't want any kids in the future... Perhaps I do. And perhaps I wouldn't even mind staying at home to take care of them and home school them... LOL...

A lot of my perspective in life has changed and is changing. I think it's all part of growing. I remember my dream when I was young. It's to find a prince and marry him, and also be a psychologist. Haha... So much have changed since then... Oh, how I miss the days when there were no worries. Haha... Dream on... :)

I am quite irritated with myself. Slacking is one thing, slacking without aims in life is another. I know I always push myself too hard, but I don't know how not to. I am so irritated that I can't find the concrete aims in my life right now. I hope I find it soon before I drive myself nuts.

Had a sleepless night yesterday even though I was quite tired. Something is bothering me but I have no idea what. I need to get out and going soon. Staying at home ain't doing me good.

I find life without any aims useless and not worth living. I will not submit myself to that. NEVER.

I should get myself another good book to read now... And a nice cup of coffee perhaps. I have been thinking about the cute kitten all morning. It's amazing that I kindda miss it. LOL...

Here I am sitting at Starbucks with a long time friend. Haha. I finally started gaining back my balance in life. If there's one thing that I've learnt during these few months, it would be that family and friends are seriously important.

Talking to friends about crap, sitting down and just chilling out, doing nothing important at all. I miss all that man...

Yesterday's graduation was great. It's calming to see all my classmates and lecturers again. Jimmy really came back to see us! He's looking great. SMU must be so much better. I hope we can find time to meet up again before the guys go into army.

I want to get back in touch with music again. Chloe, all the best for 29th! Please spur me on in my aim to get back in touch :P. I hope to meet you soon!

Went back to office to clear up everything today. Finally a load off my mind.

David' birthday chalet's tml till mon. My grad's on mon, Sly's thurs. Got to find time to excercise to create positive cells :P

Can't wait to see all my classmates again. Heard that Jimmy's coming on our Grad too. So happy!!! Haha. He's really nice to us. Actually, all our lecturers are nice to us :P... We're quite a fortunate bunch.

Gelare... I haven't had it for months. Siew Ting, when are you bringing me out for it?

I suddenly want to have a shopping spree. I want to buy all the books that attract me. I want to buy tibits and stock them up in my room (I have done a little of this already). I want clothes, shoes, hats, sunglasses, perfumes, makeup, bags and toys... LOL... I am starting to sound materialistic.

Anyways, I am finding my life. May I find it soon...

Life

Sorry for disappearing guys! I guessed I was too caught up in work again. Well, I guess that you guys are used to it :P

Haha. Anyways, this few months made me understand something every important in life. It also made me understand the things that are important to me in life. I have always thought that a career/job is very important to me and that I want to do very very well in it. But I guess that I was always wrong.

I CANNOT give up my life, my family and my friends for success in a career. I CANNOT let someone step over me and crash me just for the hope to learn more. I CANNOT endure being scolded for something that ain't my fault. I rather be happy then "successful" in others eyes. To me, having a happy life is SUCCESS.

Anyways, you might be thinking that "Vera's crapping again". LOL... I don't blame you. This is just my thought in life, you may/may not have yours (yet).

Also, please contact me and ask me out my friends! Haha. I am gonna take a break for a while. Which means "NO WORK"!!! Haha! Starting from next week. And for DMATters, see you guys on tue!