To a dear friend, I will always be here. I am just a phone call away. Anytime :)

Well, life seems to be slightly going back to it's track.
After all the mess and chaos... it seems to have toned down a little...
I prefer it like that though...
I like my life organised... I need to know what's happening next...
I don't really like surprises unless they are seriously nice...

Done with PAM... Left with Arranging transcription and report, songwriting score and recording, REMT cover song... God... How do I complete it all?

Songwriting dued on wed (haven't started!!! gosh!)
Arranging dued on fri
REMT dued next fri

Crazy days

I am gonna rest for a while by blogging...

Damn tired...
Have been rushing and rushing since school starts.
Or actually through the whole holiday...
I am so tired tt I keep zoning out...
Fell asleep before I could do anything ystd when I reach home...

Crazy days man...
And I am now taking up a job as coordinator for my internship company...
2 days... Friday will be end of everything...
I am seriously happy to see them all again... I miss them so much...

Vernon had half his tummy left.
Eugene got over Vernon's tummy and got a goatee.
Ms Wong dyed her hair... so cool...
Melvin has more white hair...
Haas... First time I miss my collegues so much...
They're just so fun to be with no matter how stressful the work is :)

Finally breaking the silence

Well, I am going to break the silence that I had for a few days which I talked through pictures.

Just to update a little:
Mon - Recorded guitar from my REMT cover
Tue - Played sax for Serene's REMT cover
Wed - Met up with baby and then went to the chalet
Thurs - P CONNECTED day at NYP

The trip to NYP was stupid and time wasting. I felt like we were degraded to 7 year olds there with all the games they were playing. LOL... I couldn't wait to get out of there.

Silence

bu zuo ni de peng you by S.H.E.

man man shi yi
suo you he ni de shi qing bi xu wang ji
ai de pen di
shen pa zai yi di yan lei jiu hui jue ti

wo ye bu xiang bei ni ken ding
zai zhe ge shi hou
shuo wo rang ni gan dong guo

bie wo zhu wo de shou
shuo wo yi ding hui dong
zhuo bu cheng de ai ren bian cheng zui hao peng you
bie qian zhe wo de shou
xiang zhe bie ren lian kong
huan ge fang shi qian shou bing bu hui gen hao guo
ke bu ke yi bu zuo ni de peng you

man man xin tong
mei you ren fa xian wo he cong qian bu tong
ni de yan zhong
kan de jian ling yi ge ren gei de gan dong

wo ye bu yao ni xin teng wo
zai zhe ge shi hou
dui wo bi cong qian wen rou

ying gai fang qing de tian qi
hai xia yu
bie zhe yang xia qu
wo nan guo
dan shi shuo bu chu kou

yi zhi tao bi
wo yi wei bi shang yan jing
jiu neng wang ji
wo de ji yi
kai shi zai yu tian de qi yue
er shi shan man man jing guo
wo men yi qi rao guo de shi zhi jie kou
zhe me zhou tou zhou bu dao jing tou

ke bu ke yi bu hui tou
ke bu ke yi jiu fang shou
ke bu ke yi bu zhuo ni de peng you

This is what I need. I need no words, no questions, no answers... I need no conversation... Just a nice, warm hug that says everything...

Words hurt, questions hurt, answers hurt... Hugs don't...

Today was like a loving yet painful day for me.
I feel love and pain at the same time... Yet another confusing day for me...

The performance was quite nice today other than the frequent cracks from the bass due to the speakers. I am really starting to love the song collide by howie day...


Collide by Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Well, just to summarise my two days.

Mon:
Got my table from IKEA
Had meeting for the camp and it didn't went as well as I wanted it to. Shall skip the details...
Went out with the 3 of them for dinner.

Today:
CCF duty in the morning
SP Experience duty after that. I was doing the coordinating stuffs... Running about is tiring but fun man.
Dinner with Jon, Amelia and her twin. I love her twin too! ;)
And I am now pissed with someone...

Life is seriously confusing at times...

Things come into your life when everything's stable and messes it up, just when you least expect it to.

And then, suddenly... they are gone again...

But everything in your life is still messed up... And some mess can never be reverted again... Just like the tearing of paper. Just like hurt and pain...

Nobody knows... I am out, or so I hope I am.

I'm posting again cos I saw something that I really have to let out...

Went surfing on my cousins friendster and of course some friends too. And I went on to look at one of my cousin's blog...

I haven't heard from her for extremely long, although I did hear about her from others. I just knew that her family is going to keep away, they hate my uncle (their dad), the sisters went to Korea to have their eyelids made double (and they are back already)... Then I saw things like her clubbing her life away from the look of her friendster as well as blog... Today, I realised that her mum thought her how to smoke...

OMG...

I dunno what to say, how to say and how to feel... I am shocked, angry, depressed, sad, and everything else... All at the same time... I still find it hard to breathe now...

What's happening? Really, can someone just tell me what's happening?

I feel sad that I wasn't there for her, or actually, can't be with her all these while. Could I have done something to help and perhaps it wouldn't be so bad? I feel depressed that other than waiting for her reply and waiting for her to tell me something, I can't do anything else...

I sort of understand how she feels cos we both have depressed members in our family, though hers is much much worst... I wanna help... But I don't know how...

I am seriously on a shopping spree:

I bought a pair of shorts ystd.

Then I went to Bugis after my tuition today to get 2 tops, a pair of jeans and a belt.

Spent like 98 bucks on everything.

Feeling very happy yet painful about it...

Haas... Happy that I got new clothes, and painful that I lost the money... LOL...

But I think it's worth it! ;)

My clothes have all outgrown me. I've got not much clothes to wear now...

Two sets of clothes isn't too much (trying desperately to tell myself that it's fine to spurge once in a while)...

Hee...