Ok, I am here to complain, complain and complain... So if you can't take it, please don't read it. I've warned you! :)

Been sick the past few days, like seriously seriously sick. Coughing only during the night (my cough is nocturnal like me) and having to do crap in the morning. My family organised this "gong tek" thing for my dad, my grandparents, my great grandparents as well as some other dead relatives. So there was a lot of praying, folding of hell bank notes and of course burning of incense. And you know how much everything for 2 days cost? 20k. It's crazy man. I rather give that kindda money to poorer people. That might be more meaningful. I mean, they are dead, why not spend the money on living people who might die without the money?

Anyways, I went there for these 2 days with the preparation to be scolded and to face shit. Thankfully, I was prepared for the worst. So nothing that I faced there was worst than what I've guess. I treated every shit like a joke, so like you probably guessed, these 2 days were real funny. The first day started with me greeting a relative, and as I was sick, she couldn't hear me over the noise. So she looked at me and said, "Wah, now grow up already dunno how to greet people already is it?" LOL... My sis asked me to reply, "Wah, now you old already cannot hear already is it?". Of course I didn't say anything. But it's really funny.

My sis got scolded a lot on the second day, for no obvious reasons too. Haas. And the adult insisted that he's right. Damn, my mum was angry at him. Haas. Everything look like a joke to me still. Oh, and loads of people cried when they say my dad's pic. I didn't feel a thing, not even a pinch. I was wondering why they cried. I think I have come to terms that he's gone forever and nothing can bring him back. He's still me beloved father and the one I look upon and respect, but I need not cry cause it'll not bring him back anyway.

Well, I shan't write the other jokes cos it'll take half the day to talk about them. Ask me if you're interested. That's all :)

Got to start working for my assignments tml. Tml is the day. Partly looking forward and yet dreading it. It's back to the cold and hard seats in school.

Practice resumes tml. I hope I remembr to bring my scores! LOL... Missing the baritone sax. Lets spice it up baby! When the sexy sax comes in~~~

Missing school loads and I have a number of ppl on my list to meet still. Hope I can catch them this holidays! Oh man, I miss the beach.

what I wanna do tml:
- arrange my remt
- practice hard

For now, back to movies! :)

Once and once again, you hurt me.

Tons and tons of scars you inflict on me.

Days and days of blaming me.

When is it ever enough?

When can you stop it?

When can you open your eyes and look at what I have done for you?

I long to be gone.

I long to fly away and fly up high, into my sky.

I long to let the rain wash away my tears.

I long to be loved once again, when hurt was never in my dictionary of words.

And yet, I still stay by you.

Maybe, maybe I'll be gone one day.

Take care if that ever ever happens.

For now, open your eyes and look at me.

Ystd was fun as I got to eat Gelare again!!! Haas... So happy... But sad that I cant finish it... Stupid stomach. I think my gastric weak leh... Then now my lungs also. Happy happy just give me cough. Dimmit!

Ok... Today finally got mood to talk about Poly Forum! Haas... Btw, if you guys haven't noticed, I am back!!! Tada!!!

Poly Forum started of seriously boring, team building games and such. Then we went to bowl. That was fun and I scored 84 points I think :). It was fun watching Chloe play! So cute... Haas... Anyways, we had BBQ session that night and it turned out to be a sharing session of jokes and such. Quite fun. Spent a whole night talking about stage managing and stuffs later in the night.

So the second day was tiring after not sleeping the night before. But like always, I am more high when I am tired. We went to Hortpark to practice. didn't know such a place existed. A very nice place indeed, if not for the hot hot weather. Practicing under the hot sun is not fun at all, especially when you are in dark blue top and skinnies. Felt like fainting... After that we had a teranium workshop. I just wanted to get over and done with during that. Had some sleep on the second night.

Third day was crazy. Kept rushing about, being the makeup artist as the others aren't available. quite fun though seeing the guys faces and hear them complaint about makeup. Haha. I am evil!!! Anyways, didn't have much time to do my makeup and it was done in a rush. Thankfully, it turned out ok. Just ok. The rehearsal was normal and I was a little afraid that I'll forget stuffs during the performance. Then before I know, the performance has started and it was seriously AWESOME!!! I had real fun and I remembered every single shit. Haas. Kept screaming during the performance. I guess the good thing about percussion is that your mouth is free during performance... There were lots of cam whoring time during the wait for the next performance and talking cock time! LOL... The party after the performance was crazy too! I forgot all about the pain in my toes and the tiredness of my body and kept jumping in heels! LOL... That night was ok... Everyone's tired and wanted to sleep already. I managed to get to the beach but not for long. Mei Xian didn't allow me to stay there myself :(... Managed to get there before sunrise too! Yay! I miss it still... The cool breeze blowing through your hair and the beautiful colours that lights up the sky... Shiok. Thanks to Charles and Mei Xianfor going there with me! :)

Made a lot of friends there during the Poly Forum. Ridwan, Fi Fi, Alif, Amir, JK, Tiac Woooooo, Kit, Jokhie, Charles, Faiz, Eugene, Sylvester, Hanifi, Samuel, Mei Xian, and loads others. Sorry if I miss out any names... Those that I know beforehand not included! Haas... Miss you guys... Loads... Oh, and not forgetting Han and Rene! and my percussion student facilitator. I think she's younger than me! :)

Eww... Everything that goes down feels like coming out. How do I gain more weight and fats at this rate? Dimmit!!! Nothing to do just now, so I did something to one of my pics with earphones. I like the effect it gave. Limegreen :)




Pretty right? LOL... **Vomit**

Anyways, class outing tml... Time to cycle and work my leg muscles! Tone it girl, tone it! Maybe going for a dip in the pool tml? Relax and chill my back... Aching like shit still... Water therapy? Haas... Anyways, saw something interesting today.

Psychology depicts love as a cognitive and social phenomenon. Psychologist Robert Sternberg formulated a triangular theory of love and argued that love has 3 different components: intimacy, commitment, and passion. Intimacy is a form in which 2 people share confidences and various details of their personal lives (usually in friendships and romantic love affairs). Commitment, on the other hand, is the expetation that the relationship is permanent. The last and most common form of love is sexual attraction and passion. Passionate love is shown in infatuation as well as romantic love. All forms of love are viewed as varying combinations of these 3 components.

Following developments in electrical theories, such as Coulomb's law, which showed that positive and negative charges attract, analogs in human life were developed, such as "opposites attract". However, in the last century, research on the nature of human mating has generally found this not to be true. Infact, people tend to like people similar to themselves (I agree!). However, in a few and unusual and specific domains, suchas immune systems, it seems that humans prefer others who ae unlike themselves, since this will lead to a baby which has the best of both worlds (interesting! I also want!). In recent years, various uman bonding theories have been developed, described in terms of attachments, ties, bonds and affinities.

Some western authorities disaggregate into 2 main components, the altruistic and narcissistic. The view is represented in the works of Scott Pect, whose works in the field of applied psychology explored the definitions of love and evil. He maintians that love is a combination of the "cpncern for the spiritual growth of another" and simple narcissism. In combination, love is an activity, no simply a feeling.

Love is an activity! Come on! Let's love!

Something is freaking wrong with my body. I have absolutely no appetitie and I feel like vomitting out every thing I ate... Crazy body!

Why would anyone want a boyfriend who's hair is pink, walks and acts like a sissy and everything about him is nothing but pink? and he's nowhere near cool to start with.

Sorry, I am being random. Just needed to get it out.

Btw, peeps! I am officially back from Poly Forum and I need to get started with my assignments! POD 1 and 2, songwriting (haven't handed it it yet) and REMT (which I hope to do with Chloe and Grace)...

Looking forward to the class gathering BBQ tml evening. Missing my fellow DMATs. Dun ask me why, I just miss them!

I wanna get my life back. I've been living without a life for far too long and it's sickening. LOL...