Thursday, January 29, 2009

Happy Lunar New Year to all who reads my blog! Especially friends and classmates!

Chinese New Year holiday is over in no time at all... Two more weeks to go in sch... Got to chiong all the way!

I am determined to make it! And I must! Haha... I see a bit of light in my life today... I might have a future afterall... Haha...

CNY was fun although short. Been around a few of my relatives home and I had the company of my treasured one for the whole of ystd... I think he brought me loads of luck. Won a little ystd on blackjack... Haha... I miss playing it with my family so much tt I went down to it straight away when they started.

I still haven't got to learn how to play majong... Haha... when are you going to teach me baby?

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Super pissed off by someone. You think teaching is so damn easy? Why don't you try it for yourself. Especially your student don't even trust you in what you teach. Come on, if you think that I can't teach you well, find another one!

I made loads of students improve tremendously ok. I teach with everything I've got. I dun need to tolerate your disgusting attitude. I've done my part and I can swear that I gave my best. If you look down on me, get another one! I dun see why I must and have to teach you.

Think the money is earned so easily? Think again! You haven't even worked for your whole life before! If money is earned so easily, there wouldn't be any poor people on earth! Everyone will be rich! Think tuition earns you a lot? Try it. Yes, I dare you to.

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Maria Mena - Just Hold Me

Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days

And why(why) can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Love it song. The melody got stuck in me once I heard it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02_NLgATkv0&feature=related

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Rushed songwriting this morning. Couldn't write anything out last night. No inspiration at all... Everything that came out was bullshit...

But yeah, I managed to complete it this morning and rushed to sch to record it. I need to thank rain for the backing track as well as setting up studio D for me to record despite being so tired.

No more slacking now. Trying very hard to tell myself that. Argh...

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

It has been quite a wonderful day today up till 7pm.

I got a scare from Iskandar while he was telling us a ghost story. I was so scared that I couldn't control the tears from flowing out from my eyes lah... In the middle of FC6... So embarrassing!

Had fun with the girls cam-whoring with STing's mac. So fun! I like the pic of the scary me!

Coordinated with Lester today to get some MUMI class practice done. I love the result! The impact is so funny! Haha... It has been a good time experimenting.

Arranging was fun today too! We learnt about "funk" and I love it! I dun find funk boring at all... I so wanna play as well as Maceo Parker... My saxophone playing is LIFELESS... Just like me, LISTLESS...

Monday, January 05, 2009

Hurting, hurting and hurting. The pain from my gums is distracting me from work! And I can't even talk loudly :(

Songwriting is dued this thurs! ARGH!!! I need inspiration!

I wanna work out and hopefully it makes me feel happier and gets me fitter! I am gonna plan a regime and stick through it! Self discipline Vera!

I need to stop myself from spending so much money. I dunno if I am getting a retail therapy or what so ever, cos I spent so much in just these 2 months! OMG... I'm gonna go bankrupt if I continue to spend like this! Hopefully, it's dued to having to prepare for the new year (new clothes, etc.).

I miss my beloved...

Saturday, January 03, 2009



KILL ME PLEASE!!!



No, don't try to screw me up. I want my kind of life, not yours. You've not planned the first 19 years of my life, don't try to do it now. I'm not used to it and I don't even like it.

I've planned every stage of my life up till now, what subjects to study, what school to go to. Don't try to tell me where I should go or what I should do now... I am not someone you can manipulate anymore after leaving me to make all my choices in life myself.

I am now stucked between you and my dreams. Each threatening to kill... But yeah, I'll always give in to you in the end. Which makes me so sad and depressed. Because I know that no matter how hard I try and give to achieve my dream, you will blow it...

You made it every clear that you would like me in a 5-day work week, 8 to 5pm job. But I hate those kindda jobs you know? It's so irritating and boring... I need an ever changing environment. I want fun and laughter in my work. I want a sense of achievement and joy from my work. I can't stay in an office. I can't get stuck to my desk. I absolutely HATE IT...