Do you have times when you feel that your close ones are like your greatest threat on earth? That maybe they are the one that can hurt you most and make you stumble along your path (perhaps towards sucess - you don't really know if it's success because you never ever get to even walk till the end).
Sometimes I feel lost and disappointed. People closest to you are what we always think of as your best supporters. But somehow or rather, they can become your worst stumbling stone. They can make you fall the hardest... And that's because you gave them the full trust that they will not make you fall and even help you through you hardest times.
I am going through a big change in my life. And the saddest thing is that everyone think I can, other than my close one. Everyone puts faith in me, but my own family member thinks I'm shit. There is no point in proving to others how good you are. I never like doing that. The main reason - I see no point.
I am who I am. I think what I want to think. I make my own choices. And I need no one to judge me because no one person is good enough to judge another. And this is what I constantly remind myself too. No one's too successful, no one is a failure too. Unless that person makes himself one.
My heart and mind feels as heavy as a stone now. She, who always says how much she understands me completely loses me and my thoughts. Now I wonder, how much does she understand me? If she does, she wouldn't be saying all these pessimistic things now. And instead me there to help me make things happen.
Everyone's tired from the work as well as studies that they have to do everyday. Who's not tired at all. Everyone just have to bring in their hearts together to make things work. Nothing is achieved alone. There's always a team to do it. And why bother who does more and who does less? The point is to get it done and over with. Is this even so hard to do?
It's not how good you are, but whether you want to make time and put your heart into it.
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