Saturday, July 30, 2011
同恩-不准哭
It seems like a long long time since we have taken a photo together... Have we grown apart?
现在是你在做贱自己，还是我在做贱自己？应该放手吗？
Shivering in the heat
I saw this today and it bring chills to my heart:
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything
Even if the weather’s nice
I don’t feel nice
It seems like the weather’s mocking me
I fall into a situation where I can’t deal with the anger and I struggle
The world apart from me is running fine
You’re living well
It’s not fair, this isn’t fair
I feel like people walking past me think I’m pitiful
I can’t do anything right
This morning I missed my stop
The bus stop I ended up getting off at,
Because I was thinking about you,
Was a stop that I wasn’t familiar with
It looked lonely, I started crying
I walked like that for a long time
I hated you so much but then I started missing you
The days I spent weak because I couldn’t
Hold onto you are so pitiful
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything about it
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing
No matter what I was it’ll sound like an excuse
Even if I say this is all for you
You’re not right for me
Uncomfortable, as if you’re wearing clothes
That don’t suit you
Beautiful, but I’m losing my strength beside you too
How do you think I felt watching that?
We shouldn’t have started at all
I shouldn’t have looked at your eyes that first time
I thought I would feel relieved after I let you go
But it’s really not like that
My head knows break ups
My heart can’t disagree, but everyday I draw you and erase you
I’ll do all the hurting and I just want you to be happy
So this decision won’t be useless
So we don’t regret, I’ll always pray for you
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing
I’m going to forget a little bit at a time
After time passes I’ll be able to laugh and remember
Don’t say time is medicine, tell me a better way
You can receive love greater than the love I gave you
You’re still beautiful
You said it would last forever
In the end, we’re still the same as everyone else
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
That day will come
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything
Even if the weather’s nice
I don’t feel nice
It seems like the weather’s mocking me
I fall into a situation where I can’t deal with the anger and I struggle
The world apart from me is running fine
You’re living well
It’s not fair, this isn’t fair
I feel like people walking past me think I’m pitiful
I can’t do anything right
This morning I missed my stop
The bus stop I ended up getting off at,
Because I was thinking about you,
Was a stop that I wasn’t familiar with
It looked lonely, I started crying
I walked like that for a long time
I hated you so much but then I started missing you
The days I spent weak because I couldn’t
Hold onto you are so pitiful
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything about it
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing
No matter what I was it’ll sound like an excuse
Even if I say this is all for you
You’re not right for me
Uncomfortable, as if you’re wearing clothes
That don’t suit you
Beautiful, but I’m losing my strength beside you too
How do you think I felt watching that?
We shouldn’t have started at all
I shouldn’t have looked at your eyes that first time
I thought I would feel relieved after I let you go
But it’s really not like that
My head knows break ups
My heart can’t disagree, but everyday I draw you and erase you
I’ll do all the hurting and I just want you to be happy
So this decision won’t be useless
So we don’t regret, I’ll always pray for you
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing
I’m going to forget a little bit at a time
After time passes I’ll be able to laugh and remember
Don’t say time is medicine, tell me a better way
You can receive love greater than the love I gave you
You’re still beautiful
You said it would last forever
In the end, we’re still the same as everyone else
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
That day will come
Thursday, March 03, 2011
Sometimes, I allow myself a little time to miss him...
On my way home today, this song came up on the itouch as I was reaching home. I listened carefully to every word, and tears just came into my eyes. I miss him so much...
If anyone really wanted to know why I went for a degree that is giving me so much stress now. It's just cause I promised him that I will. And I will.
This song is for you, my father, the greatest man in my life. :)
Monday, February 28, 2011
What changed?
Where is the girl, that fought hard, to go to a school where her primary school friends wouldn't be?
Where is the teenager, who chose poly, when she could have went to a jc (the normal way)?
Where is the teenager, who climbed fences with her friends, when the gate was too far away?
Where is the teenager, who loved challenges and obstacles, so that she would overcome them?
Where is the teenager, who was afraid of the norms, as she wanted something exciting everyday?
Where is the teenager, who loves breaking out of her norms, so that she could try other new ways?
Why am I so timid now? Why am I more afraid, as I grow older?
Where is the teenager, who chose poly, when she could have went to a jc (the normal way)?
Where is the teenager, who climbed fences with her friends, when the gate was too far away?
Where is the teenager, who loved challenges and obstacles, so that she would overcome them?
Where is the teenager, who was afraid of the norms, as she wanted something exciting everyday?
Where is the teenager, who loves breaking out of her norms, so that she could try other new ways?
Why am I so timid now? Why am I more afraid, as I grow older?
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Swimming~
Went for a good swim today. Did 30 laps for the first time in years. Took about 45 mins. Kind of proud with myself today. And I did my stomach exercises too despite my stomach muscles that are still aching :)
I don't know why I like swimming so much. Perhaps when I swim, I can't hear anything, I am away from the phone, away from troubles. The only people I have contact with are the people in the pool. Even if I go with friends, I can't talk to them while swimming. I can only focus on my own laps. In the blue water. Love it :)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
The Sample Store
I am so in love with The Sample Store now. I got samples to try out before buying the whole product. Wish more shops will have this kind of stuff too!
You guys should try it out. You can redeem 3 samples instantly and have it sent to your house! :)
遇到这样的男生、该放手的就放手吧
遇到这样的男生、该放手的就放手吧
This is so true. To all the girls out there, don't hang on to the wrong one. Cos it only stops you from finding your right one :)
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Breathing in the small details in life.
Bf's been really sweet lately. It's either that or I'm even more grateful of what I have. He actually told sasabird that he's gonna get engaged with me after his army. I couldn't keep it in, so I told mum too. Hehee.
Got to know a few new friends this year too. They're really nice even though I dunno how the friendship will go. I hope it goes on well. I'm gonna find friends that are keepers :)
Managed to get some new comers to join us for the west coast park activity tmr. Hope everything will go on well and they will continue joining us!
I can't wait to enjoy some live music soon! Miss going down to esplanade for a walk and chilling out with friends. Actually, I miss DMAT days. Period.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Uneventful week
Been sick the whole weekend till now with stomach flu. Vomited so much yesterday that I feel dehydrated. Missing sch cos I'm afraid of puking on the bus. Ahh... I wanna get better soon.
I can only stare at the chocos sly bought me and I can't eat them now...
I wanna do some studying but I can't seem to get to it. I need some motivation!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Somehow... I don't know...
somehow I feel uncomfortable thinking about you going with them. Especially without me along. I know that I have to trust you and let you go wherever you want to. But something in me is nagging at me not to.
Someone once told me to let you fly and if you come back, you're mine. But the possessive me doesn't want to even let the possibility of you flying even happen. Why? Maybe because of fear. And no, I don't want you to become the same. Ever.
Many things happen in split seconds, you don't even realise it until it happens. And sometimes, it's just too late.
and even if I ask you not to, you still will go and keep silent about it. And I'll hate it when I find out... Idk what I should or shouldn't do...
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