Shivering in the heat

I saw this today and it bring chills to my heart:

A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything

Even if the weather’s nice
I don’t feel nice
It seems like the weather’s mocking me
I fall into a situation where I can’t deal with the anger and I struggle
The world apart from me is running fine
You’re living well
It’s not fair, this isn’t fair
I feel like people walking past me think I’m pitiful
I can’t do anything right

This morning I missed my stop
The bus stop I ended up getting off at,
Because I was thinking about you,
Was a stop that I wasn’t familiar with
It looked lonely, I started crying
I walked like that for a long time
I hated you so much but then I started missing you
The days I spent weak because I couldn’t
Hold onto you are so pitiful

A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything about it
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing

No matter what I was it’ll sound like an excuse
Even if I say this is all for you
You’re not right for me
Uncomfortable, as if you’re wearing clothes
That don’t suit you
Beautiful, but I’m losing my strength beside you too
How do you think I felt watching that?
We shouldn’t have started at all
I shouldn’t have looked at your eyes that first time
I thought I would feel relieved after I let you go
But it’s really not like that

My head knows break ups
My heart can’t disagree, but everyday I draw you and erase you
I’ll do all the hurting and I just want you to be happy
So this decision won’t be useless
So we don’t regret, I’ll always pray for you

A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing
I’m going to forget a little bit at a time
After time passes I’ll be able to laugh and remember
Don’t say time is medicine, tell me a better way
You can receive love greater than the love I gave you
You’re still beautiful
You said it would last forever
In the end, we’re still the same as everyone else
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
That day will come