I just have to let it out

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I wanna puke. You make me feel damn stressed. The moment you step into the door, my whole stomach clench, I feel sleepy and I want to sleep.

You nv ever admit your mistakes do you? You are always right, always guessing the right thing, always the one who makes the call. I am already living the life that you want me to live. Is that not enough for you? What more do you want?

I am already telling myself constantly to just accept what you want. To live my life the way that you want me to. I am already giving way, why do you want to push me to the corner of my life?

I am tired. I feel better without having to live up to your expectations. What you see in life is just a different point of view as compared to me. It's not whether who's right or wrong. Why do you have to make me see things from your point of view at all times? Why?

Why am I always wrong and you always right? Don't you realise that you are the one committing to the 'crimes' that you blame me for? I will say that I'm always in the wrong, cos that's how you like it. Now you are cleverer in that you realise that the "I'm in the wrong" nv comes out from my heart.

But I wonder, do you really know me? You know I am distancing myself from you cos I show it. Will you know if I don't show it? Don't give you the cold eye?

I don't even know how I should look at you anymore. Other than disappointment, there's no other words to describe how I feel about you.

Sorry if you are reading my post and feel that I am babbling. Cos I really am. I just have to let it out.