See no EVIL, hear no EVIL, say no EVIL

I really don't like being in this situation. I don't want to see anything, hear anything, or speak about it. I don't want to know it.

I have been through it. I thought that I was finally out of the vicious cycle. I thought I was finally free. But there it is again - giving me the evil smile. It was always there.

When I thought that finally life was great for me, it has to come tumbling down. Perhaps this is real life, with its ups and downs. But isn't this 'down' to great to handle time and again?

I want to run away from it. I don't want to face it again. I don't want to know about it. I don't want to handle it. I have enough of it. I want to be happy, I want to be free, but yet, I can't not be a part of it. Cos it's family...