I finally managed to compose an email to him after loads of tears and pain... I don't know how I can hold my head up high towards him from today on. Feel like a criminal :(

Really dunno how to write to Jimmy about the camp. I just can't seem to phrase anything right... I feel so bad towards him. It's now no longer about results, but the fact that he trusted us to do this right --- And we screw it up instead. I feel that I've let him and other lecturers down...

I find writing the email such a painful process... The camp was like my baby. And now I'm killing it before it becomes a monster... It's like having an abortion after you realised that your baby won't be able to grow well... And i've allowed my baby to grow from May till now... Should have aborted it earlier... It's dangerous to abort after 3 months and that is precisely the situation that I am in.

No longer thinking of doing well. Just wanna pass and get out of here. I am giving myself more stress than I can handle...

Super emotional these days...

Super super tired... Guess I am not the only one... So tired that I feel like vomiting every single day...

A few things are on hand now:
1. Music Camp - TV interview, finding people still
2. MUMI Assignment 3 and 4
3. ARR Assignment 3 and 4
4. POD Presentation on Mon
5. Resume
6. Interview

Can't remember the others... LOL... Too tired le...

Heard a bad news today... Damn sad... Putting all my sadness into doing work... So I'm super efficient now other than the fact that I keep feeling like vomiting... Damn...