I met a friend on my way back home from tuition today...
The last time I saw her was four years ago...
But what's scary was, she had a two yr old kid with her...

I felt sorry for her suddenly...
A 17th yr old already has a family to think of...
She used to be this happy and cheerful petite cute girl...
But now?
She's tied down with family burdens...
She has to give up studying and take care of a kid...

She's still smiling but can anyone see what's under that smile?
Can anyone see her stress and pain?
Can anyone feel what's she's feeling?

After talking to her for a while and trying to force her to talk, she finally broke down and cry...
Cry girl, let all your tears flow...
I'll hold you tight for now when u are at ur weakess...
Cry to your heart's content...
And cry out all the unhappiness, stress, and pain...

She's gonna hang on and bring up her kid well...
She's gonna be strong and hang on all the way...
Woman are great...
They are built such that they will still hang on no matter what...
It's painful, tiring and stressful, but they'll still hang on...

I was thinking a lot after meeting her and on my way home...
Almost got knocked down by a car...
Thank goodness it's still not time for me to die yet...
Haha...

Anyway, I made my mum cry just now...
Before the tution, I was watching the replay of channel U's "Superstar"...
And one for the contestant actually said "If you are still around, I want you Tears rolled down my cheeks...
I am such an emotional person...
Then my mum asked me why I am tearing...
I told her and started crying...
LOL... And she started crying and laughing at the same time...
She knew that I missed my dad...
And she's laughing at me cos I let tt trigger off my emotions...

Yeah, I miss him...
Tons...
I would happily give up everything except for my other loved ones to have him back...
I should go and visit him someday...
Wondering who would go with me...

I have succeeded on not contacting him for 2 days le...
Feeling a little empty but I think I can make it...
I will and I have to make it...

Through The Rain by Mariah Carie

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught and in pain
Without anyone

We keep prayin’ to saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can’t

Find your way home
You can get there alone
It’s okay
When you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on

Step fastly
And you’ll find what you need
To prepare
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind moves
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face

And sure they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stay calm and sane

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
And I live one more day
And I’ll make it through the rain