What changed?

Where is the girl, that fought hard, to go to a school where her primary school friends wouldn't be?
Where is the teenager, who chose poly, when she could have went to a jc (the normal way)?
Where is the teenager, who climbed fences with her friends, when the gate was too far away?
Where is the teenager, who loved challenges and obstacles, so that she would overcome them?
Where is the teenager, who was afraid of the norms, as she wanted something exciting everyday?
Where is the teenager, who loves breaking out of her norms, so that she could try other new ways?

Why am I so timid now? Why am I more afraid, as I grow older?

Swimming~

Went for a good swim today. Did 30 laps for the first time in years. Took about 45 mins. Kind of proud with myself today. And I did my stomach exercises too despite my stomach muscles that are still aching :)

I don't know why I like swimming so much. Perhaps when I swim, I can't hear anything, I am away from the phone, away from troubles. The only people I have contact with are the people in the pool. Even if I go with friends, I can't talk to them while swimming. I can only focus on my own laps. In the blue water. Love it :)

The Sample Store

I am so in love with The Sample Store now. I got samples to try out before buying the whole product. Wish more shops will have this kind of stuff too!

You guys should try it out. You can redeem 3 samples instantly and have it sent to your house! :)

遇到这样的男生、该放手的就放手吧

遇到这样的男生、该放手的就放手吧

This is so true. To all the girls out there, don't hang on to the wrong one. Cos it only stops you from finding your right one :)

Breathing in the small details in life.

I saw my friend posting this link on her fb today. I couldn't help smiling to myself when I was reading through the blog post. It's awesome :)

Some things I remember from the 90's

Bf's been really sweet lately. It's either that or I'm even more grateful of what I have. He actually told sasabird that he's gonna get engaged with me after his army. I couldn't keep it in, so I told mum too. Hehee.

Got to know a few new friends this year too. They're really nice even though I dunno how the friendship will go. I hope it goes on well. I'm gonna find friends that are keepers :)

Managed to get some new comers to join us for the west coast park activity tmr. Hope everything will go on well and they will continue joining us!

I can't wait to enjoy some live music soon! Miss going down to esplanade for a walk and chilling out with friends. Actually, I miss DMAT days. Period.

Awesome sound!

Uneventful week

Been sick the whole weekend till now with stomach flu. Vomited so much yesterday that I feel dehydrated. Missing sch cos I'm afraid of puking on the bus. Ahh... I wanna get better soon.

I can only stare at the chocos sly bought me and I can't eat them now...

I wanna do some studying but I can't seem to get to it. I need some motivation!

Somehow... I don't know...

somehow I feel uncomfortable thinking about you going with them. Especially without me along. I know that I have to trust you and let you go wherever you want to. But something in me is nagging at me not to.

Someone once told me to let you fly and if you come back, you're mine. But the possessive me doesn't want to even let the possibility of you flying even happen. Why? Maybe because of fear. And no, I don't want you to become the same. Ever.

Many things happen in split seconds, you don't even realise it until it happens. And sometimes, it's just too late.

and even if I ask you not to, you still will go and keep silent about it. And I'll hate it when I find out... Idk what I should or shouldn't do...

Hang Music's so COOL!!!

Again and Again...

TRANSLATIONS
[JS] again and again and again and again
[JB] again and again and again and again

[WY] why am i standing like this in front of your house again, am i a fool
getting tricked again and again, and suffering again and again
but why am i at this place again

[JH] i think i’ve gone crazy, have i no pride
i come back to you, like going around and around in a circle
saying ‘i can’t be like this (like this, like this)’,
i’m being like this again today, no

[JS] again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. i don’t know why, i don’t know why
[JB] again and again and again and again
i fall for your words again. i don’t know why, i don’t know why

[NK] why do i seem like such a fool
why did i become like this
i made a firm decision, again and again
why do i keep coming back to you

[JH] i think i’ve gone crazy, have i no pride
i come back to you, like going around and around in a circle
saying ‘i won’t ever see you again (see you, see you)’,
i’m being like this again

[JS] again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. i don’t know why, i don’t know why
[JB] again and again and again and again
i fall for your words again. i don’t know why, i don’t know why

[CS] what kind of medicine are you, that i can’t give it up
even without me knowing, i keep yearning for you, and eventually look for you again
though i know you’re a bad girl, i embrace you and love you again
undoubtedly, clearly, i want to come towards you
knowing all the pains of tomorrow, i can’t turn around, i can’t decide

[TY] darn it, why am i like this, why am i lying next to this girl
how many more times do i have to do this for me to come to my senses
someone, tie me down somewhere, quickly, please
she’s a bad girl, i know (i know), but here i go again. oh no

[JS] again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. (i’m going back to you) i don’t know why, i don’t know why
[JB] again and again and again and again (i keep coming back)
i fall for your words again. (even i) i don’t know why, i don’t know why
[JS] oh, oh, yeah

Credits: Mnet + crazykyootie@soompi

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I like these lyrics... Love is blind and we are forever doing something against our own pride and the voice shouting in our head. Hopelessly in love... That's what the phrase means.

I often wonder what's the percentage of people who follow their hearts more than their brains when they are really in love. I mean REALLY IN LOVE. Not in love for the sake of having someone love them or having someone to love. And what is the percentage of married couples that are really in love.

I heard from someone before that LOVE DOESN'T LAST FOREVER. What comes next is RESPONSIBILITY. So there are so many divorces cos people aren't as responsible anymore? Or is it that new age girls now ask for equality now that we have the same earning power as guys? Or is it that guys still have the same concept of the past, and they do not want girls stepping into their realm of power?

最近听到了太多分分合合。难道人的 “爱” 就尽尽如此吗？

太多的纠纷，太多的烦恼，太多的争吵。。。

太少的理解，太少的沟通，太少的忍让。。。

小时候的世界飞去哪了？

那个充满童真，快乐，合群，礼让的世界去哪了？

小时候的我，希望快快长大。因为成人让我觉得成人的世界无比的快乐。

但当我慢慢成长，我发现成人的世界有无比的忧伤，无比的争斗。

为了保护自己，我们伤害他人。

为了金钱，我们损人害己。

为了名利，我们不择手段。

害人害己，自相残杀。。。

不断的，每天的，这样过着。。。

“爱” 去哪了？

Motivation for Studies

http://www.exampapersexpert.com/motivation-1.html

I just have to let it out

@#%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^*()^%$#$%^

I wanna puke. You make me feel damn stressed. The moment you step into the door, my whole stomach clench, I feel sleepy and I want to sleep.

You nv ever admit your mistakes do you? You are always right, always guessing the right thing, always the one who makes the call. I am already living the life that you want me to live. Is that not enough for you? What more do you want?

I am already telling myself constantly to just accept what you want. To live my life the way that you want me to. I am already giving way, why do you want to push me to the corner of my life?

I am tired. I feel better without having to live up to your expectations. What you see in life is just a different point of view as compared to me. It's not whether who's right or wrong. Why do you have to make me see things from your point of view at all times? Why?

Why am I always wrong and you always right? Don't you realise that you are the one committing to the 'crimes' that you blame me for? I will say that I'm always in the wrong, cos that's how you like it. Now you are cleverer in that you realise that the "I'm in the wrong" nv comes out from my heart.

But I wonder, do you really know me? You know I am distancing myself from you cos I show it. Will you know if I don't show it? Don't give you the cold eye?

I don't even know how I should look at you anymore. Other than disappointment, there's no other words to describe how I feel about you.

Sorry if you are reading my post and feel that I am babbling. Cos I really am. I just have to let it out.

See no EVIL, hear no EVIL, say no EVIL

I really don't like being in this situation. I don't want to see anything, hear anything, or speak about it. I don't want to know it.

I have been through it. I thought that I was finally out of the vicious cycle. I thought I was finally free. But there it is again - giving me the evil smile. It was always there.

When I thought that finally life was great for me, it has to come tumbling down. Perhaps this is real life, with its ups and downs. But isn't this 'down' to great to handle time and again?

I want to run away from it. I don't want to face it again. I don't want to know about it. I don't want to handle it. I have enough of it. I want to be happy, I want to be free, but yet, I can't not be a part of it. Cos it's family...

The 3Ps in good educators

I have been talking to different educators from different levels as well as aspects. Be it from pri/sch or higher level schools, religion, music schools, etc. I only managed to really come to a conclusion, about being an educator, today.

What makes good educators GOOD? I realised that it revolves around 3 main traits, mainly what I call the 3Ps: Patience, Passion and Perseverance. A good educator basically has this 3 traits somehow or rather.

It sets me thinking... In Singapore, what's the percentage off educators with these 3Ps?

Stalker...

I have slowly becomed the person that I didn't want to be... I don't wanna track you down, look at ur mails, check your phone records, look at your fb, find out everything about you... I feel like a stalker... I have degraded myself... I lost confidence... I lost my shine...

What exactly happened to me? Trust... seems so hard to do sometimes... How do I build it back up? how?

New...

I have a new feeling about 'love' after watching a certain drama.

Sometimes, loving is to let go. Free the person so that he/she can look for happiness. This takes a bigger love to do as compared to selfishly keeping them by your side even though they might be unhappy.

Love doesn't have to be exciting/very romantic/nervous/butterflies in the stomach. It can be comfortable/secure too. It is romantic when your partner looks into the details of your life. Simple things like drying your hair, drawing circles on your hand can be romantic too :)

I want to write a new song with this whole new feeling about 'love'.

溫嵐-傻瓜 KTV

I gave my trust to you, and...

Define GROWING UP

You know, some times I always think about how people grow in size but never ever mature. They don't become more resourceful, thoughtful, caring. They don't grow in both IQ or EQ. Or perhaps they do improve on their IQ but not EQ.

How do you gauge growth? By size or by their maturity? It doesn't mean that a person after 21 is grown up. Yes, they are legally an adult. But they aren't literally.

The Earth is round

The Earth is round, what starts from you comes back to you.