Happy Lunar New Year to all who reads my blog! Especially friends and classmates!
Chinese New Year holiday is over in no time at all... Two more weeks to go in sch... Got to chiong all the way!
I am determined to make it! And I must! Haha... I see a bit of light in my life today... I might have a future afterall... Haha...
CNY was fun although short. Been around a few of my relatives home and I had the company of my treasured one for the whole of ystd... I think he brought me loads of luck. Won a little ystd on blackjack... Haha... I miss playing it with my family so much tt I went down to it straight away when they started.
I still haven't got to learn how to play majong... Haha... when are you going to teach me baby?
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Super pissed off by someone. You think teaching is so damn easy? Why don't you try it for yourself. Especially your student don't even trust you in what you teach. Come on, if you think that I can't teach you well, find another one!
I made loads of students improve tremendously ok. I teach with everything I've got. I dun need to tolerate your disgusting attitude. I've done my part and I can swear that I gave my best. If you look down on me, get another one! I dun see why I must and have to teach you.
Think the money is earned so easily? Think again! You haven't even worked for your whole life before! If money is earned so easily, there wouldn't be any poor people on earth! Everyone will be rich! Think tuition earns you a lot? Try it. Yes, I dare you to.
I made loads of students improve tremendously ok. I teach with everything I've got. I dun need to tolerate your disgusting attitude. I've done my part and I can swear that I gave my best. If you look down on me, get another one! I dun see why I must and have to teach you.
Think the money is earned so easily? Think again! You haven't even worked for your whole life before! If money is earned so easily, there wouldn't be any poor people on earth! Everyone will be rich! Think tuition earns you a lot? Try it. Yes, I dare you to.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Maria Mena - Just Hold Me
Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care
You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days
And why(why) can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
Love it song. The melody got stuck in me once I heard it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02_NLgATkv0&feature=related
Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care
You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days
And why(why) can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
Love it song. The melody got stuck in me once I heard it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02_NLgATkv0&feature=related
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Rushed songwriting this morning. Couldn't write anything out last night. No inspiration at all... Everything that came out was bullshit...
But yeah, I managed to complete it this morning and rushed to sch to record it. I need to thank rain for the backing track as well as setting up studio D for me to record despite being so tired.
No more slacking now. Trying very hard to tell myself that. Argh...
But yeah, I managed to complete it this morning and rushed to sch to record it. I need to thank rain for the backing track as well as setting up studio D for me to record despite being so tired.
No more slacking now. Trying very hard to tell myself that. Argh...
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
It has been quite a wonderful day today up till 7pm.
I got a scare from Iskandar while he was telling us a ghost story. I was so scared that I couldn't control the tears from flowing out from my eyes lah... In the middle of FC6... So embarrassing!
Had fun with the girls cam-whoring with STing's mac. So fun! I like the pic of the scary me!
Coordinated with Lester today to get some MUMI class practice done. I love the result! The impact is so funny! Haha... It has been a good time experimenting.
Arranging was fun today too! We learnt about "funk" and I love it! I dun find funk boring at all... I so wanna play as well as Maceo Parker... My saxophone playing is LIFELESS... Just like me, LISTLESS...
I got a scare from Iskandar while he was telling us a ghost story. I was so scared that I couldn't control the tears from flowing out from my eyes lah... In the middle of FC6... So embarrassing!
Had fun with the girls cam-whoring with STing's mac. So fun! I like the pic of the scary me!
Coordinated with Lester today to get some MUMI class practice done. I love the result! The impact is so funny! Haha... It has been a good time experimenting.
Arranging was fun today too! We learnt about "funk" and I love it! I dun find funk boring at all... I so wanna play as well as Maceo Parker... My saxophone playing is LIFELESS... Just like me, LISTLESS...
Monday, January 05, 2009
Hurting, hurting and hurting. The pain from my gums is distracting me from work! And I can't even talk loudly :(
Songwriting is dued this thurs! ARGH!!! I need inspiration!
I wanna work out and hopefully it makes me feel happier and gets me fitter! I am gonna plan a regime and stick through it! Self discipline Vera!
I need to stop myself from spending so much money. I dunno if I am getting a retail therapy or what so ever, cos I spent so much in just these 2 months! OMG... I'm gonna go bankrupt if I continue to spend like this! Hopefully, it's dued to having to prepare for the new year (new clothes, etc.).
I miss my beloved...
Songwriting is dued this thurs! ARGH!!! I need inspiration!
I wanna work out and hopefully it makes me feel happier and gets me fitter! I am gonna plan a regime and stick through it! Self discipline Vera!
I need to stop myself from spending so much money. I dunno if I am getting a retail therapy or what so ever, cos I spent so much in just these 2 months! OMG... I'm gonna go bankrupt if I continue to spend like this! Hopefully, it's dued to having to prepare for the new year (new clothes, etc.).
I miss my beloved...
Saturday, January 03, 2009
KILL ME PLEASE!!!
No, don't try to screw me up. I want my kind of life, not yours. You've not planned the first 19 years of my life, don't try to do it now. I'm not used to it and I don't even like it.
I've planned every stage of my life up till now, what subjects to study, what school to go to. Don't try to tell me where I should go or what I should do now... I am not someone you can manipulate anymore after leaving me to make all my choices in life myself.
I am now stucked between you and my dreams. Each threatening to kill... But yeah, I'll always give in to you in the end. Which makes me so sad and depressed. Because I know that no matter how hard I try and give to achieve my dream, you will blow it...
You made it every clear that you would like me in a 5-day work week, 8 to 5pm job. But I hate those kindda jobs you know? It's so irritating and boring... I need an ever changing environment. I want fun and laughter in my work. I want a sense of achievement and joy from my work. I can't stay in an office. I can't get stuck to my desk. I absolutely HATE IT...
I've planned every stage of my life up till now, what subjects to study, what school to go to. Don't try to tell me where I should go or what I should do now... I am not someone you can manipulate anymore after leaving me to make all my choices in life myself.
I am now stucked between you and my dreams. Each threatening to kill... But yeah, I'll always give in to you in the end. Which makes me so sad and depressed. Because I know that no matter how hard I try and give to achieve my dream, you will blow it...
You made it every clear that you would like me in a 5-day work week, 8 to 5pm job. But I hate those kindda jobs you know? It's so irritating and boring... I need an ever changing environment. I want fun and laughter in my work. I want a sense of achievement and joy from my work. I can't stay in an office. I can't get stuck to my desk. I absolutely HATE IT...
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
My thanks for 2008.
It's coming to the end of 2008 and I have a few special people to thank for helping me pull through this year. Without them, I won't know where I'll be right now (probably pretty screwed up). It's very long, so you can choose not to read it.
Thank you Ginny, for supporting me through whatever I wanna do. You are a great listener despite all my rantings. Your support brought me through a lot of things.
Thank you Audrey, for always being my friend, no matter how I am.
Thank you Chloe, for passing me some of your happiness and cheerful spirit!
Thank you Evan, for being there, whether you are in good temper or not. :P
Thank you Felix, for dropping by my phone whenever I need someone to flare up at... And thank you for showing me the blatant and painful truth every time. Can't you let me live in my own world sometimes? Haha... You've been a great source of destress.
Thank you Pei Ling, for pulling through the camp with me, no matter what the end result will be.
Thank you Jimmy, for tolerating the shit that I've given you due to my project. Thank you for helping me so much.
Thank you Pei Zhen for being closer to me now. It's another burden off my shoulders and being closer to my sister means a lot to me! Blood is still thicker than water.
Of course, not forgetting general thanks to everyone else.
Thank you DMAT lecturers for helping me whenever you can. Your care and concerns for me can be deeply felt.
Thank you 'DMAT the 2nd' for all the fun times they have given me this year. Being in class can be very stress-relieving with all the jokes going around. I love all the self-proclaimed "tea breaks" too! :)... For those of you who helped me in my work, thank you too! I know who you are, but if I write it out, the list will be too long.. Haha...
Thank you to all my other relatives and friends who cared and stayed by me this year. I know I dun really show concern to you guys often. So, thank you for being my friend. =)
Lastly, thank you baby, for standing by me no matter how much I've changed or how cold I am to you sometimes. Your love and support means a lot to me. Thank you for taking care of me even when you aren't feeling good yourself. Thank you for putting me above everything else.
Thank you Ginny, for supporting me through whatever I wanna do. You are a great listener despite all my rantings. Your support brought me through a lot of things.
Thank you Audrey, for always being my friend, no matter how I am.
Thank you Chloe, for passing me some of your happiness and cheerful spirit!
Thank you Evan, for being there, whether you are in good temper or not. :P
Thank you Felix, for dropping by my phone whenever I need someone to flare up at... And thank you for showing me the blatant and painful truth every time. Can't you let me live in my own world sometimes? Haha... You've been a great source of destress.
Thank you Pei Ling, for pulling through the camp with me, no matter what the end result will be.
Thank you Jimmy, for tolerating the shit that I've given you due to my project. Thank you for helping me so much.
Thank you Pei Zhen for being closer to me now. It's another burden off my shoulders and being closer to my sister means a lot to me! Blood is still thicker than water.
Of course, not forgetting general thanks to everyone else.
Thank you DMAT lecturers for helping me whenever you can. Your care and concerns for me can be deeply felt.
Thank you 'DMAT the 2nd' for all the fun times they have given me this year. Being in class can be very stress-relieving with all the jokes going around. I love all the self-proclaimed "tea breaks" too! :)... For those of you who helped me in my work, thank you too! I know who you are, but if I write it out, the list will be too long.. Haha...
Thank you to all my other relatives and friends who cared and stayed by me this year. I know I dun really show concern to you guys often. So, thank you for being my friend. =)
Lastly, thank you baby, for standing by me no matter how much I've changed or how cold I am to you sometimes. Your love and support means a lot to me. Thank you for taking care of me even when you aren't feeling good yourself. Thank you for putting me above everything else.
Ok, as usual, time to stress and motivate myself. =(
Deadlines
2 Jan - Arranging (Close to you)
8 Jan - Songwriting (Changes)
14 Jan - MUMI (Mother's Day clip)
28 Jan - Arranging (large ensemble)
4 Feb - MUMI (collaboration with DDM)
6 Feb - REMT surround sound
11 Feb - POD final submission
Ok, I am feeling stressed now... *biting my nails*
Deadlines
2 Jan - Arranging (Close to you)
8 Jan - Songwriting (Changes)
14 Jan - MUMI (Mother's Day clip)
28 Jan - Arranging (large ensemble)
4 Feb - MUMI (collaboration with DDM)
6 Feb - REMT surround sound
11 Feb - POD final submission
Ok, I am feeling stressed now... *biting my nails*
Friday, December 26, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Absolutely no mood in doing any work... My eyes hurt badly and I find it hard to keep it open... I wonder how I can bite through this all and survive in the end... But I know, somehow or rather, I will make it through... Just not with flying colours...
Everything's driving me mad other than friends - family, sch, relationships, work, etc.
I wanna break free...
Everything's driving me mad other than friends - family, sch, relationships, work, etc.
I wanna break free...
It scares me to know how much you check on me when I thought I had all the freedom in the world. It's too much of a coincidence for it to be true... It's not like it's the first few sms, it's way back...
It scares me, scares me so much that you are posessive in your own way... You sort of give me freedom, but controls in from behind... It's so scary that my I'm having goosebumps while writing this.
Your face shows no weird emotion even when you are investigating me... You can still smile at me when I ask you what's wrong... I can't tell at all... And this is freakingly scary... Like I've kept a time-bomb close beside me...
And yes, this is driving me mad... It's not anyone, but you... The one I held so dear...
It scares me, scares me so much that you are posessive in your own way... You sort of give me freedom, but controls in from behind... It's so scary that my I'm having goosebumps while writing this.
Your face shows no weird emotion even when you are investigating me... You can still smile at me when I ask you what's wrong... I can't tell at all... And this is freakingly scary... Like I've kept a time-bomb close beside me...
And yes, this is driving me mad... It's not anyone, but you... The one I held so dear...
Friday, December 19, 2008
Ah... I need a break! Year 3 life is emotionally stressful... LOL...
Everytime I just feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down any moment and then I don't... LOL... so tiring man... Thank goodness there are friends beside me to lean on when I'm tired and cheer me up with jokes when I'm not in a good mood.
Now that 2008 is coming to an end soon, I wanna thank all the people that made a difference in my life this year. Everyone who have given me every little support, even if it's in the form of an sms or a pat on the shoulder. Thank you :)
Everytime I just feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down any moment and then I don't... LOL... so tiring man... Thank goodness there are friends beside me to lean on when I'm tired and cheer me up with jokes when I'm not in a good mood.
Now that 2008 is coming to an end soon, I wanna thank all the people that made a difference in my life this year. Everyone who have given me every little support, even if it's in the form of an sms or a pat on the shoulder. Thank you :)
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Really dunno how to write to Jimmy about the camp. I just can't seem to phrase anything right... I feel so bad towards him. It's now no longer about results, but the fact that he trusted us to do this right --- And we screw it up instead. I feel that I've let him and other lecturers down...
I find writing the email such a painful process... The camp was like my baby. And now I'm killing it before it becomes a monster... It's like having an abortion after you realised that your baby won't be able to grow well... And i've allowed my baby to grow from May till now... Should have aborted it earlier... It's dangerous to abort after 3 months and that is precisely the situation that I am in.
No longer thinking of doing well. Just wanna pass and get out of here. I am giving myself more stress than I can handle...
Super emotional these days...
I find writing the email such a painful process... The camp was like my baby. And now I'm killing it before it becomes a monster... It's like having an abortion after you realised that your baby won't be able to grow well... And i've allowed my baby to grow from May till now... Should have aborted it earlier... It's dangerous to abort after 3 months and that is precisely the situation that I am in.
No longer thinking of doing well. Just wanna pass and get out of here. I am giving myself more stress than I can handle...
Super emotional these days...
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Super super tired... Guess I am not the only one... So tired that I feel like vomiting every single day...
A few things are on hand now:
1. Music Camp - TV interview, finding people still
2. MUMI Assignment 3 and 4
3. ARR Assignment 3 and 4
4. POD Presentation on Mon
5. Resume
6. Interview
Can't remember the others... LOL... Too tired le...
Heard a bad news today... Damn sad... Putting all my sadness into doing work... So I'm super efficient now other than the fact that I keep feeling like vomiting... Damn...
A few things are on hand now:
1. Music Camp - TV interview, finding people still
2. MUMI Assignment 3 and 4
3. ARR Assignment 3 and 4
4. POD Presentation on Mon
5. Resume
6. Interview
Can't remember the others... LOL... Too tired le...
Heard a bad news today... Damn sad... Putting all my sadness into doing work... So I'm super efficient now other than the fact that I keep feeling like vomiting... Damn...
Friday, October 31, 2008
So tired... I seem to find everything (including simple stuff) to be taking a lot of effort these days. Maybe I old le... Haha... Year 3 in DMAT is really not easy... But I'll get pass it! I will! And I must! With flying colours.
I am just trying to encourage myself for a little. Haha... I bought Jay's Album today. It's quite good. Very Jay style and enjoyable.
I am just trying to encourage myself for a little. Haha... I bought Jay's Album today. It's quite good. Very Jay style and enjoyable.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Blogging to rem my info... haas... weird way, but hopefully it helps...
Chord Scales
Major Key:
Imaj7 IImin7 IIImin7 IVmaj7 V7 VImin7 VIImin7b5
Minor Key:
Imin7 IImin7b5 bIIImaj7 IVmin7 Vmin7 bVImaj7 bVII7
Chord Theory
Major 7th: 1 3 5 7
Minor 7th: 1 b3 5 b7
Dominant 7th: 1 3 5 b7
Augmented 7th: 1 3 #5 b7
Diminished 7th: 1 b3 b5 bb7
Half diminished 7th: 1 b3 b5 b7
Scale Theory
Minor (natural): 1 2 b3 4 5 b6 b7
Minor (harmonic): 1 2 b3 4 5 b6 7
Minor (melodic - up): 1 2 b3 4 5 6 7
Minor (melodic - down): b7 b6 5 4 b3 2 1
Woodwind instruments
Piccolo (8va)
Flute (x)
Oboe (x)
Cor anglais (P5 down)
Bassoon (x)
Bb Clarinet (M2 down)
A Clarinet (m3 down)
Eb Clarinet (m3 up)
Bass Clarinet (M9 down)
Contra Bassoon (x)
Horn
Bb Soprano Sax (M2 down)
Eb Alto Sax (M6 down)
Bb Tenor Sax (M9 down)
Eb Alto Saxophone (8vb + M6 down)
Brass
Bb Trumpet (M2 down)
Bb Cornet (M2 down)
French Horn (P5 down)
Bb Trombone (x)
Bb Bass Trombone (x)
Tuba (x)
Strings
Violin (x)
Viola (x)
Cello (x)
Doublebass (8vb)
Guitar (8vb)
Electric Bass (8vb)
Percussion
Timpani (x)
Snare Drum (x)
Bass Drum (x)
Cymbal (x)
Vibes (x)
Marimba (x)
Xylophone (8va)
Celesta (8va)
Piano (x)
Harp
Glokespiel (2 8va)
Chord Scales
Major Key:
Imaj7 IImin7 IIImin7 IVmaj7 V7 VImin7 VIImin7b5
Minor Key:
Imin7 IImin7b5 bIIImaj7 IVmin7 Vmin7 bVImaj7 bVII7
Chord Theory
Major 7th: 1 3 5 7
Minor 7th: 1 b3 5 b7
Dominant 7th: 1 3 5 b7
Augmented 7th: 1 3 #5 b7
Diminished 7th: 1 b3 b5 bb7
Half diminished 7th: 1 b3 b5 b7
Scale Theory
Minor (natural): 1 2 b3 4 5 b6 b7
Minor (harmonic): 1 2 b3 4 5 b6 7
Minor (melodic - up): 1 2 b3 4 5 6 7
Minor (melodic - down): b7 b6 5 4 b3 2 1
Woodwind instruments
Piccolo (8va)
Flute (x)
Oboe (x)
Cor anglais (P5 down)
Bassoon (x)
Bb Clarinet (M2 down)
A Clarinet (m3 down)
Eb Clarinet (m3 up)
Bass Clarinet (M9 down)
Contra Bassoon (x)
Horn
Bb Soprano Sax (M2 down)
Eb Alto Sax (M6 down)
Bb Tenor Sax (M9 down)
Eb Alto Saxophone (8vb + M6 down)
Brass
Bb Trumpet (M2 down)
Bb Cornet (M2 down)
French Horn (P5 down)
Bb Trombone (x)
Bb Bass Trombone (x)
Tuba (x)
Strings
Violin (x)
Viola (x)
Cello (x)
Doublebass (8vb)
Guitar (8vb)
Electric Bass (8vb)
Percussion
Timpani (x)
Snare Drum (x)
Bass Drum (x)
Cymbal (x)
Vibes (x)
Marimba (x)
Xylophone (8va)
Celesta (8va)
Piano (x)
Harp
Glokespiel (2 8va)
Friday, October 17, 2008
Went out slightly with Audrey ystd and it was great fun. Glad everything's cleared! I'm so happy!
Read a chinese love story novel ystd and the pain in my heart caused me to tear. Haas. I am so emotional.
Loads of things to complete within these few weeks. shan't list them down as I am already stressed enough. Don't need to help seeing them. Haas... Escaping!
Something funny happened today. Sly's "je" on facebook text me asking about him. LOL... I acted blur and ask her who she is... Such a funny person... Haas...
I wanna go for a few concerts and clinics. For now, 8 nov and 20 nov is booked for concerts! Yeah!!!
Read a chinese love story novel ystd and the pain in my heart caused me to tear. Haas. I am so emotional.
Loads of things to complete within these few weeks. shan't list them down as I am already stressed enough. Don't need to help seeing them. Haas... Escaping!
Something funny happened today. Sly's "je" on facebook text me asking about him. LOL... I acted blur and ask her who she is... Such a funny person... Haas...
I wanna go for a few concerts and clinics. For now, 8 nov and 20 nov is booked for concerts! Yeah!!!
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