Random feelings...

I don't know where these random emotions are coming from... I'm feeling angry, insecure, lost, unsure, panicky, irritated, all at the same time....

I which I could tell myself it's early menopause... but it's kind of impossible at the age of 23 :(

It's so near my exams and yet I'm feeling like crap with a whole lot of unneeded emotions... What would my future be like? What do I want? How do I proceed so that I can reach the future I want? Will he be the one that marries me? Will he want me to be his partner till the end? What career am I looking for? Should I get a HBD soon? When should I get engaged? All sorts of qns keep bugging my mind... I wish I could just concentrate on my exams right now... I know I have to do things a step at a time and now the step I should take is just concentrate on exams.

But... it's easier said than done...

First time plucking my own brows

Haha. So excited! It took me so much courage and self-persuasion to pluck my own brows. Why? Because I have brows that takes on the shape of waves. Yes! Waves!

It wasn't as thin as it would be if I would have gone to the auntie down my block, or rather my "old" block, who always helps me with it. But still, I am happy with the results! It's not as office lady but it gives me a younger vibe, or so I think :)

Just a photo for commemoration! :D

Feeling nostalgic... Remembering the good old days

Procrastination

Yeah, I know... Procrastination will only make me more and more stress as exams are pulling closer. But I simply cannot get myself down to study and IDK why. I am already starting later then last year when it was only all foundation units. Yes, I feel like pulling all my hair out too!

I know I have to study. People are already revising and I haven't started studying! Been in a bad mood because of this too. Guess the people around me are feeling it. I don't know any other way else to let it out other than blogging.

I know that I can do this! Last minute studying works well for me too! I need to stop thinking so much and stressing myself up! I need to use the energy that I use to think about random stuff for studying! I CAN AND I WILL!

Jia you Yu Ting! YOU CAN DO THIS!

Aren't taught well...

Why are we constantly told that we aren't taught well by our parents? It is really the chinese way of being humble or do they seriously think that "we aren't taught well"?

Chinese society simply have too many rules and regulations that they should write a book stating it all out before we "break the rules". How are we supposed to know that we "broke the rules" when we don't even know such "rules" existed?

Nothing in our small "pea brains" understand the point of such "rules".

Sorry, I am just one of those "不受教" ones :)

We not naughty

Watched "We not Naughty" with my family yesterday. It really brought me to tears at some parts of the movie. It was motivational and encouraging.

We should love our parents and family as they all didn't come by easy. Our mother took pains to give birth to us, our parents took pains to bring us up, our siblings were there in time of need.

If there was a "moral of the story", it will be to treasure the life that we are given, make the best choices possible, blame not the world or anyone, it's all our choice. No one can force us to be anywhere we don't want to be. If we followed what they want us to do, it's still our choice to follow them.

I should study hard for now...

A man...

You know a you saw a sensitive/thoughtful man when he runs after the bus in front of his lady but yet following the pace of hers.

Addiction!

I am recently addicted to the game "Dragonvale". It is super cute!!! The dragons when young are jut so cute that you won't be able to resist. The designer(s) of this game is really good to be able to come out with all the interesting and cute dragon designs :)

Happy New Year!

Goodbye 2011 and Hello 2012!

It was quite a nice way to start 2012 with "xie en". Without knowing how to be grateful of what we have, we'll never appreciate what life provides us. This year started really happily. I am like a happy now :D

2011 flew by really quickly and I have yet to make my new year resolutions, so I'm trying to make them now. First on my list will be to prepare for my prelims in 7 weeks time. OMG! I'm so not prepared.

So my new year resolutions as follow (may be updated):

1. Prepare for prelims

2. Plan well and do well for exams in May/June

3. Be more disciplined

4. Exercise more (twice a week)

5. Improve my temper

6. Be more thankful

7. Help my students improve their results

8. Go to fo tang regularly and not be lazy in ly (Learn the necessary zhi li)

9. Read more (esp. newspapers)

10. Love everything and anything that comes my way!

Ten should be enough I guess? I really hope to be able to achieve all of them next year. Or rather, I MUST DO IT!

Have you made your resolutions yet? It's best to do it at the start of the new year if you haven't!

Wishing everyone a good, enriching year ahead filled with bless and happiness!

Here's a song to make your day!

Bruno Mars - Just the way you are (Jayesslee cover)

容祖儿-你还是疼我的

永遠愛著你 - 容祖兒

KTV 容祖儿 心情不好

容祖兒 - 信今生愛過(國語).mpg

別說愛我-容祖兒

I thought I gave you a chance...

Or maybe two or more...

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

同恩-不准哭

It seems like a long long time since we have taken a photo together... Have we grown apart?

现在是你在做贱自己，还是我在做贱自己？应该放手吗？

MY LIFE - the best comedy

i am crying while watching a comedy. I am a comedian myself...

Shivering in the heat

I saw this today and it bring chills to my heart:

A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything

Even if the weather’s nice
I don’t feel nice
It seems like the weather’s mocking me
I fall into a situation where I can’t deal with the anger and I struggle
The world apart from me is running fine
You’re living well
It’s not fair, this isn’t fair
I feel like people walking past me think I’m pitiful
I can’t do anything right

This morning I missed my stop
The bus stop I ended up getting off at,
Because I was thinking about you,
Was a stop that I wasn’t familiar with
It looked lonely, I started crying
I walked like that for a long time
I hated you so much but then I started missing you
The days I spent weak because I couldn’t
Hold onto you are so pitiful

A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything about it
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing

No matter what I was it’ll sound like an excuse
Even if I say this is all for you
You’re not right for me
Uncomfortable, as if you’re wearing clothes
That don’t suit you
Beautiful, but I’m losing my strength beside you too
How do you think I felt watching that?
We shouldn’t have started at all
I shouldn’t have looked at your eyes that first time
I thought I would feel relieved after I let you go
But it’s really not like that

My head knows break ups
My heart can’t disagree, but everyday I draw you and erase you
I’ll do all the hurting and I just want you to be happy
So this decision won’t be useless
So we don’t regret, I’ll always pray for you

A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
I’ll be able to laugh then, but
Right now I can’t do anything
I can’t do anything
Just now I had another thought about you and now I’m sad
It’s going to be really hard, but I’ll keep erasing
I’m going to forget a little bit at a time
After time passes I’ll be able to laugh and remember
Don’t say time is medicine, tell me a better way
You can receive love greater than the love I gave you
You’re still beautiful
You said it would last forever
In the end, we’re still the same as everyone else
A bitter day, it will all be erased like this
I will forget someday
That day will come

Sometimes, I allow myself a little time to miss him...

On my way home today, this song came up on the itouch as I was reaching home. I listened carefully to every word, and tears just came into my eyes. I miss him so much...

If anyone really wanted to know why I went for a degree that is giving me so much stress now. It's just cause I promised him that I will. And I will.

This song is for you, my father, the greatest man in my life. :)