I came across an article from straits times online regarding singapore birth rates and I find that what the professor said about the situation in singapore totally true. The article is titled, "Fathers, please step up".
'A fertility rate of 1.23 children per woman indicates that life is not that optimal for young women in Singapore. You can gather from that that Singapore women have to make a choice, either to have children or to have an active professional career,' he says.
http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_525556.html
Will this situation change for the better with the newer generation? Or will the boys now follow in the footsteps of their fathers? I wonder...
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Love... indescribable...
Love can be so many things at the same time. It has existed since humanity begins or maybe perhaps longer than that. It can be so confusing and yet so simple, so big and yet so small. I wonder if I can ever grasp the whole meaning of it by the end of my life journey.
I watched a show that inspired me to do more for someone you love. Sometimes, love, is about letting something grow, even when you want to help it. Just like a butterfly. You need to let it squeeze out of the small hole by itself in order for it to fly later on.
Sometimes, beauty/dreams/achievements take a lot of effort/pain/struggles to make it come true. But it is worth it in the end. And love, is to watch your loved one go through the whole journey, without trying to stop their growth.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Super Irritating Day
Why is everyone like against me today? Argh?!?!?!
Reminding myself: "Don't get vulgar!"
I am so pissed that my hands are shaking... Peace people... Peace!!!
Reminding myself: "Don't get vulgar!"
I am so pissed that my hands are shaking... Peace people... Peace!!!
Friday, April 02, 2010
Great April!
I started my month of April great, with my baby coming out from camp. I have many plans to fulfil. I need to sit down soon to plan it well so that I will follow through.
I want to learn driving, get myself started on saxophone lessons, make myself go for a swim at least once a week and eat right (as much as possible).
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Freedom?
I quited my job so as to have some time for myself before university starts. I kindda enjoy the quiet moments at home by myself. Perhaps I have been used to being with myself since young. So I kindda like it even till now.
The joy of sitting on the bed with a nice book, with nice music playing is a heaven on Earth. But I find that as time goes by, we grow up and suddenly, we don't seem to have the freedom to do that anymore. We're either tied up with school work/job/house chores, etc.
There are some things that can wait. There are some things that can be arranged to be done together. I am someone who has to plan to do something. Why is it that I have to follow the life of another? Why am I made to do the same as others?
I like quiet time before I go to sleep. I like to prepare my brain and body for sleep by doing something that doesn't need the a high usage of brains or physical strength. I don't like to do work or house chores before I sleep. Why can't I live that way?
Who made a rule saying that we have to work our whole life other than sleeping? What's the joy in doing so if you can't even enjoy some parts of your life? There's always a time to do certain things and for me, resting comes first before household chores.
The fake idea that our elders gave us were all wrong. They told us that we'll have more freedom when we grow up, they told us that we can make our own choices when we're older. But the actual fact in life is that you have to make others happy. You have to do what others expect you to do. You have to live up to others expectations. You have your role to fulfill. And what freedom do you have?
Yes, you have the freedom of choice. But you HAVE to make the choice that makes others happy... Even when it's at the sacrifice of yours. So that's what being an adult is. Because you are older, you have to think about others and what they feel. Because you are older, you have to lead a good example.
What is good? what is bad? Everyone's definition is different and you have to live up to the highest level in order to make others happy.
I'm tired... I am tired of leaving life the way others want. I want to do things MY WAY... Without caring about how others feel. I am tired of having to follow what others want and somehow make it my choice. Do others bother that you made the choice because of them? I bet they don't. They will just say, "You are not there yet. You have much more to learn/do." No appreciation given. And when you choose you way, they'll blame you for it. When will it ever end?
The people who chooses to do things their way from the start gets their way in the end. They NEVER EVER have to do anything. They NEVER EVER get scolded for not taking the initiative to do anything. They get praised for every single little thing that they do, even if it's their own things. They are forgiven for not helping.
What is the world coming to? Why is it that the people who do more are expected to do even more? Because they deserve it for doing what others want and they want to make others happy?
Perhaps it's true that the bad kids always get more attention. They always get more love cos others think that they are behaving that way for a reason unknown. People like unknowns.... Sadistic people living in a creepy world.
I want to do my things MY WAY... But do I have the chance to?
The joy of sitting on the bed with a nice book, with nice music playing is a heaven on Earth. But I find that as time goes by, we grow up and suddenly, we don't seem to have the freedom to do that anymore. We're either tied up with school work/job/house chores, etc.
There are some things that can wait. There are some things that can be arranged to be done together. I am someone who has to plan to do something. Why is it that I have to follow the life of another? Why am I made to do the same as others?
I like quiet time before I go to sleep. I like to prepare my brain and body for sleep by doing something that doesn't need the a high usage of brains or physical strength. I don't like to do work or house chores before I sleep. Why can't I live that way?
Who made a rule saying that we have to work our whole life other than sleeping? What's the joy in doing so if you can't even enjoy some parts of your life? There's always a time to do certain things and for me, resting comes first before household chores.
The fake idea that our elders gave us were all wrong. They told us that we'll have more freedom when we grow up, they told us that we can make our own choices when we're older. But the actual fact in life is that you have to make others happy. You have to do what others expect you to do. You have to live up to others expectations. You have your role to fulfill. And what freedom do you have?
Yes, you have the freedom of choice. But you HAVE to make the choice that makes others happy... Even when it's at the sacrifice of yours. So that's what being an adult is. Because you are older, you have to think about others and what they feel. Because you are older, you have to lead a good example.
What is good? what is bad? Everyone's definition is different and you have to live up to the highest level in order to make others happy.
I'm tired... I am tired of leaving life the way others want. I want to do things MY WAY... Without caring about how others feel. I am tired of having to follow what others want and somehow make it my choice. Do others bother that you made the choice because of them? I bet they don't. They will just say, "You are not there yet. You have much more to learn/do." No appreciation given. And when you choose you way, they'll blame you for it. When will it ever end?
The people who chooses to do things their way from the start gets their way in the end. They NEVER EVER have to do anything. They NEVER EVER get scolded for not taking the initiative to do anything. They get praised for every single little thing that they do, even if it's their own things. They are forgiven for not helping.
What is the world coming to? Why is it that the people who do more are expected to do even more? Because they deserve it for doing what others want and they want to make others happy?
Perhaps it's true that the bad kids always get more attention. They always get more love cos others think that they are behaving that way for a reason unknown. People like unknowns.... Sadistic people living in a creepy world.
I want to do my things MY WAY... But do I have the chance to?
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Restless
Been out of the sales coordinator job since last Friday so that I can focus on what I need/want to do before uni as well as consolidate my uni forms. Never knew that it could be so tiring to do all these. I remember poly being so much easier. There's like so much things to do and I just can't sit down and get it done. Just the thought of it makes me tired. I wanna see my baby!
Can't wait till tml.
Can't wait till tml.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Putting yourself in others shoes
Putting ourselves into others shoes... How many of us can truly say that we have done that? Everyone have imperfections, but they have their good points too... I feel that as people age, they tend to be more and more negative... Is it due to the fact that they feel that life is short? Or do they have regrets in life? Or is it that the more they see, the less hopes they have regarding life.
I believe that a good leader remain firmly in his hopes and believes. He will not let negativity set in to sway him from the path that he believes in. But of many of us can really say that we are good leaders? Will we remain positive till the day we die? I hope I do... I hope that I can gain more wisdom and smile at everything that passes me, whether "good" or "bad". I want to be an old woman with wisdom and not one that only grudges.
I really hope...
I believe that a good leader remain firmly in his hopes and believes. He will not let negativity set in to sway him from the path that he believes in. But of many of us can really say that we are good leaders? Will we remain positive till the day we die? I hope I do... I hope that I can gain more wisdom and smile at everything that passes me, whether "good" or "bad". I want to be an old woman with wisdom and not one that only grudges.
I really hope...
Thursday, January 14, 2010
The Painful Fact of Life
Do you have times when you feel that your close ones are like your greatest threat on earth? That maybe they are the one that can hurt you most and make you stumble along your path (perhaps towards sucess - you don't really know if it's success because you never ever get to even walk till the end).
Sometimes I feel lost and disappointed. People closest to you are what we always think of as your best supporters. But somehow or rather, they can become your worst stumbling stone. They can make you fall the hardest... And that's because you gave them the full trust that they will not make you fall and even help you through you hardest times.
I am going through a big change in my life. And the saddest thing is that everyone think I can, other than my close one. Everyone puts faith in me, but my own family member thinks I'm shit. There is no point in proving to others how good you are. I never like doing that. The main reason - I see no point.
I am who I am. I think what I want to think. I make my own choices. And I need no one to judge me because no one person is good enough to judge another. And this is what I constantly remind myself too. No one's too successful, no one is a failure too. Unless that person makes himself one.
My heart and mind feels as heavy as a stone now. She, who always says how much she understands me completely loses me and my thoughts. Now I wonder, how much does she understand me? If she does, she wouldn't be saying all these pessimistic things now. And instead me there to help me make things happen.
Everyone's tired from the work as well as studies that they have to do everyday. Who's not tired at all. Everyone just have to bring in their hearts together to make things work. Nothing is achieved alone. There's always a team to do it. And why bother who does more and who does less? The point is to get it done and over with. Is this even so hard to do?
It's not how good you are, but whether you want to make time and put your heart into it.
Sometimes I feel lost and disappointed. People closest to you are what we always think of as your best supporters. But somehow or rather, they can become your worst stumbling stone. They can make you fall the hardest... And that's because you gave them the full trust that they will not make you fall and even help you through you hardest times.
I am going through a big change in my life. And the saddest thing is that everyone think I can, other than my close one. Everyone puts faith in me, but my own family member thinks I'm shit. There is no point in proving to others how good you are. I never like doing that. The main reason - I see no point.
I am who I am. I think what I want to think. I make my own choices. And I need no one to judge me because no one person is good enough to judge another. And this is what I constantly remind myself too. No one's too successful, no one is a failure too. Unless that person makes himself one.
My heart and mind feels as heavy as a stone now. She, who always says how much she understands me completely loses me and my thoughts. Now I wonder, how much does she understand me? If she does, she wouldn't be saying all these pessimistic things now. And instead me there to help me make things happen.
Everyone's tired from the work as well as studies that they have to do everyday. Who's not tired at all. Everyone just have to bring in their hearts together to make things work. Nothing is achieved alone. There's always a team to do it. And why bother who does more and who does less? The point is to get it done and over with. Is this even so hard to do?
It's not how good you are, but whether you want to make time and put your heart into it.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Random
I just realised how long I've not blogged... Haha... Maybe all my friends have taken me out of the "to read" list... LOL...
Anyway, life's busy as usual. I think I have not even logged onto msn for like months... Haha... I miss my friends, also the usual. I was so happy that I was able to have Ginny, Siew Ting and Pei Ling come over on New Year's eve for the countdown. Hopefully, they've enjoyed themselves enough to come over again next year.
Baby's birthday coming soon. Gonna get busier... I still haven't thought of what I should get for him. He has so little things that he wants... Haha... Human is just so confused... When others have too much requirements, we get frustrated... And when others don't have any requirements, we can't make up our mind... LOL... Or maybe it's just me... I am simply demanding... Haha!
I feel so fortunate for everything around me. I've got supportive family, a super good bf, easy-to-get-along colleagues, a challenging youth group and a still considered healthy body... Thank god... Truely...
Anyway, life's busy as usual. I think I have not even logged onto msn for like months... Haha... I miss my friends, also the usual. I was so happy that I was able to have Ginny, Siew Ting and Pei Ling come over on New Year's eve for the countdown. Hopefully, they've enjoyed themselves enough to come over again next year.
Baby's birthday coming soon. Gonna get busier... I still haven't thought of what I should get for him. He has so little things that he wants... Haha... Human is just so confused... When others have too much requirements, we get frustrated... And when others don't have any requirements, we can't make up our mind... LOL... Or maybe it's just me... I am simply demanding... Haha!
I feel so fortunate for everything around me. I've got supportive family, a super good bf, easy-to-get-along colleagues, a challenging youth group and a still considered healthy body... Thank god... Truely...
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
What the hell is wrong with the running of some organisations? Politics is so damn clear in there. It's f***ing screwed up! Damn... At times like this, I wonder what the hell is up in the minds of the people up there. So much about what they keep preaching... It's time they look back at what they stand for and what is happening right now...
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Ok... I have been asked to update my blog... And so I shall because I don't have a mind of my own right now...
Life's been great at work. Wonderful colleaugues and work environment with a small gym area. I am the youngest in the lot and I get pampered by them all... With someone to buy me tea everyday, something I enjoy so much... But nothing's special going on... I need somthing to ignite my life... Something interesting :)
Sly's going into army next month... I can't bear to let him go... Not my baby... May the 2 yrs be a quick one... And I shall find many things to do during this time...
Life's been great at work. Wonderful colleaugues and work environment with a small gym area. I am the youngest in the lot and I get pampered by them all... With someone to buy me tea everyday, something I enjoy so much... But nothing's special going on... I need somthing to ignite my life... Something interesting :)
Sly's going into army next month... I can't bear to let him go... Not my baby... May the 2 yrs be a quick one... And I shall find many things to do during this time...
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Life's been a struggle for some of my friends and it pains me to see that happen. I know how it feels like to struggle to break through your burdens everyday. To wake up and tell yourself that you need to walk on despite it all... I know... And I'll be here for you. Juest stretch out your arms to me, I can't help if you dont'...
Monday, June 29, 2009
For anyone of you wondering where I've disappeared to again, I have not died. I am back to work for 2 weeks already! Haha... Guess I really can't bear to stay homw for too long. It kindda makes me feel useless :P
Anyway, I work till 5.30pm everyday, so I can meet up with you guys! Chloe & Audrey, ask me out pls... :P... I wanna go to a concert soon. I haven't been to one for so long that I miss catching one!
Milli, Zaki, I still haven't met you guys. Please find an evening for me pls? Haha... Kindda miss school mates and hanging out mates. Ginny, you are one of them too! And Siew Ting, where's my long awaited GeLare? :(
Haha... Anyway, hope life's great for all of you who cares about me! :)
Anyway, I work till 5.30pm everyday, so I can meet up with you guys! Chloe & Audrey, ask me out pls... :P... I wanna go to a concert soon. I haven't been to one for so long that I miss catching one!
Milli, Zaki, I still haven't met you guys. Please find an evening for me pls? Haha... Kindda miss school mates and hanging out mates. Ginny, you are one of them too! And Siew Ting, where's my long awaited GeLare? :(
Haha... Anyway, hope life's great for all of you who cares about me! :)
Friday, May 29, 2009
I went to do relief teaching at a student care today. Some of the students are so cute, handsome or pretty... It makes me wonder if I really don't want any kids in the future... Perhaps I do. And perhaps I wouldn't even mind staying at home to take care of them and home school them... LOL...
A lot of my perspective in life has changed and is changing. I think it's all part of growing. I remember my dream when I was young. It's to find a prince and marry him, and also be a psychologist. Haha... So much have changed since then... Oh, how I miss the days when there were no worries. Haha... Dream on... :)
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I am quite irritated with myself. Slacking is one thing, slacking without aims in life is another. I know I always push myself too hard, but I don't know how not to. I am so irritated that I can't find the concrete aims in my life right now. I hope I find it soon before I drive myself nuts.
Had a sleepless night yesterday even though I was quite tired. Something is bothering me but I have no idea what. I need to get out and going soon. Staying at home ain't doing me good.
I find life without any aims useless and not worth living. I will not submit myself to that. NEVER.
I should get myself another good book to read now... And a nice cup of coffee perhaps. I have been thinking about the cute kitten all morning. It's amazing that I kindda miss it. LOL...
Had a sleepless night yesterday even though I was quite tired. Something is bothering me but I have no idea what. I need to get out and going soon. Staying at home ain't doing me good.
I find life without any aims useless and not worth living. I will not submit myself to that. NEVER.
I should get myself another good book to read now... And a nice cup of coffee perhaps. I have been thinking about the cute kitten all morning. It's amazing that I kindda miss it. LOL...
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Here I am sitting at Starbucks with a long time friend. Haha. I finally started gaining back my balance in life. If there's one thing that I've learnt during these few months, it would be that family and friends are seriously important.
Talking to friends about crap, sitting down and just chilling out, doing nothing important at all. I miss all that man...
Yesterday's graduation was great. It's calming to see all my classmates and lecturers again. Jimmy really came back to see us! He's looking great. SMU must be so much better. I hope we can find time to meet up again before the guys go into army.
I want to get back in touch with music again. Chloe, all the best for 29th! Please spur me on in my aim to get back in touch :P. I hope to meet you soon!
Talking to friends about crap, sitting down and just chilling out, doing nothing important at all. I miss all that man...
Yesterday's graduation was great. It's calming to see all my classmates and lecturers again. Jimmy really came back to see us! He's looking great. SMU must be so much better. I hope we can find time to meet up again before the guys go into army.
I want to get back in touch with music again. Chloe, all the best for 29th! Please spur me on in my aim to get back in touch :P. I hope to meet you soon!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Went back to office to clear up everything today. Finally a load off my mind.
David' birthday chalet's tml till mon. My grad's on mon, Sly's thurs. Got to find time to excercise to create positive cells :P
Can't wait to see all my classmates again. Heard that Jimmy's coming on our Grad too. So happy!!! Haha. He's really nice to us. Actually, all our lecturers are nice to us :P... We're quite a fortunate bunch.
Gelare... I haven't had it for months. Siew Ting, when are you bringing me out for it?
I suddenly want to have a shopping spree. I want to buy all the books that attract me. I want to buy tibits and stock them up in my room (I have done a little of this already). I want clothes, shoes, hats, sunglasses, perfumes, makeup, bags and toys... LOL... I am starting to sound materialistic.
Anyways, I am finding my life. May I find it soon...
David' birthday chalet's tml till mon. My grad's on mon, Sly's thurs. Got to find time to excercise to create positive cells :P
Can't wait to see all my classmates again. Heard that Jimmy's coming on our Grad too. So happy!!! Haha. He's really nice to us. Actually, all our lecturers are nice to us :P... We're quite a fortunate bunch.
Gelare... I haven't had it for months. Siew Ting, when are you bringing me out for it?
I suddenly want to have a shopping spree. I want to buy all the books that attract me. I want to buy tibits and stock them up in my room (I have done a little of this already). I want clothes, shoes, hats, sunglasses, perfumes, makeup, bags and toys... LOL... I am starting to sound materialistic.
Anyways, I am finding my life. May I find it soon...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Life
Sorry for disappearing guys! I guessed I was too caught up in work again. Well, I guess that you guys are used to it :P
Haha. Anyways, this few months made me understand something every important in life. It also made me understand the things that are important to me in life. I have always thought that a career/job is very important to me and that I want to do very very well in it. But I guess that I was always wrong.
I CANNOT give up my life, my family and my friends for success in a career. I CANNOT let someone step over me and crash me just for the hope to learn more. I CANNOT endure being scolded for something that ain't my fault. I rather be happy then "successful" in others eyes. To me, having a happy life is SUCCESS.
Anyways, you might be thinking that "Vera's crapping again". LOL... I don't blame you. This is just my thought in life, you may/may not have yours (yet).
Also, please contact me and ask me out my friends! Haha. I am gonna take a break for a while. Which means "NO WORK"!!! Haha! Starting from next week. And for DMATters, see you guys on tue!
Haha. Anyways, this few months made me understand something every important in life. It also made me understand the things that are important to me in life. I have always thought that a career/job is very important to me and that I want to do very very well in it. But I guess that I was always wrong.
I CANNOT give up my life, my family and my friends for success in a career. I CANNOT let someone step over me and crash me just for the hope to learn more. I CANNOT endure being scolded for something that ain't my fault. I rather be happy then "successful" in others eyes. To me, having a happy life is SUCCESS.
Anyways, you might be thinking that "Vera's crapping again". LOL... I don't blame you. This is just my thought in life, you may/may not have yours (yet).
Also, please contact me and ask me out my friends! Haha. I am gonna take a break for a while. Which means "NO WORK"!!! Haha! Starting from next week. And for DMATters, see you guys on tue!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
I was sitting on my bed in the afternoon today when my mum came back home. She asked me, "What's wrong with you? Why are you looking emo?".
Haha... Perhaps I really was...
I think that I am still perhaps a perfectionist inside of me. I want my life to be beautiful, not even a shade of grey. No, I can't accept that. Perhaps that's what making me so sad and emo... That my life wasn't the way I wanted it to be...
I want a beautiful life. Will I achieve it in the end? Or do I get a beautiful lie?
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